Last week of being 32 years old

Turning another year older, aging gracefully and loving myself even more. This year I would like to share the things that I have learned throughout my 33 years of life. Happiest Birthday to me and all who is turning 33 with me.

Marriage

Marriage isn’t pretty or easy. I am thankful that God allowed my husband and I to move to find healing. We were able to argue, get upset and work through our differences within our personal space. Overall, marriage can be beautiful if you allow it to grow through Christ.

Motherhood

My daughter is a person who can be very expressive and detailed when she wants to share something. For example, one day she said “I wish I can see life through your eyes.” Yes, an 8 year old said that. This year I learned that I was not a good at listening especially to my daughter. She told me that in her 2019-2020 school year she was very lonely but she didn’t use that exact word. What she said was that no one would play with her and her minutes were always taken away because she was talking in class but she wasn’t.

After the first week of her new school she expressed how joyful she was receiving warmth from everyone. I asked her what made this new school different from her old school and she replied that the kids played with her and the teacher paid attention to her. It finally clicked in that she was lonely not because she couldn’t make friends but simply because no one wanted to play with her.

I thought that if she was mature, thoughtful and observant that my tough motherhood life would be over. This time around I will try my best to listen to my daughter’s needs if it has to do with asking in depth about her concerns. I won’t let her feel unprotected where she isn’t feeling good or safe where ever she goes.

Career

When I was working I believed the community that I was a part of allowed me to be at peace with my surroundings. They also gave a bit of trust to me to help ease their everyday routine to also find peace for themselves. The best part about my job was the interacts from small talks to simple smiles from everyone.

My husband wanted to me to start a self employment job but I didn’t feel like it was my calling. It cost money to invest in myself and it was not something we could afford. His idea was that he rather go poor investing in me if I wanted to start a business, even if it’s small. He is a big picture see’s the future kind of guy and puts a little too much trust in me. The thing is, I believe I could do it but as for now lets see what the future holds.

Future